the ball of knots (anxiety)

Good morning.

My anxiety is taking a turn for the worse today. Why am I anxious? perhaps that's a good place to start. Maybe I'll make a list, to comprise my stream of consciousness.

• I have the general thought: Nothing seems to work
• Specific thought: my computer (nothing seems to work)
• Specific thought: My playlist metadata is all screwed up for some reason (Nothing seems to work)
• General thought: life (nothing seems to work)
• Specific thought: peer envy (my life doesn't seem to be working)
• specific feeling: loss, jealousy, disappointment (peer envy, my life doesn't seem to be working)
• Specific thought: my body isn't what I want it to be
• Temptation: mia, ex girlfriend.
• Feeling: hopeless
• Grounding for hopelessness: news about spending review

Solutions:

• Take a deep breath
• One step at a time
• Do what you can
• Remember your past fondly, the persons you were made up the person you are now. I sincerely believe that you are maturing

For want of precis, I think my thoughts and feelings are crystallised in these words. I hope my anxiety eases today.