power rangers reunion.

Dear Diary,

Yesterday was a profound spiritual experience. The old boys network was so amazing to be around and it was nie to feel like I am someone special, it was nice to feel like I was someone again. I told lots of stories, I heard lots of stories too. Its so nice to hear from former schoolboys sitting in the same chairs we used to 'in our day'. I kept saying that a lot, 'in our day'. In our day the musicians were really intense and amazing, I was the wosrt of them, I kept telling them that. I miss those days in some ways. I don't miss the past. I just miss the community. I miss the friends, i miss the teachers with amazing personalities.

 

It felt like a Power rangers reunion. I was like tommy or jason or something, and I a few of the generations after me. But I'll always be tommy and or jason to them. God it really touched my heart.

And now, I just have to get on with my life.

At the train station going to the performance I was thinking to myself: what about afterwards? and I chastised myself thinking: there is no afterwards, all that matters is the event when I play. But I do realise a pattern in my thinking that I fixate on one thing and then I'm excited that it happened, but then I feel deflated afterwards, and I'm not sure how to look at myself after its done. Maybe there's a next big thing to look forward too, but in this case, and in many cases past, there weren't, and I just felt deflated. I need to get back on the horse and move forward.