C A L M

Dear Diary,

It's a bit hard to look forward right now. It's the anxiety of uncertainty about The Sentinel. I'm trying to make another job application today. Hopefully we'll see how this goes. I have about 2.5 hours to do stuff today. I've not been productive at all lately. I think it's been a month since I've sent a fucking job application!

 

Fuck! Fuck Fuck!

C A L M - Antonia used to say that to me. She loved me. I was talking to a friend last night, gossiping about girls as it happened (she's a girl), and she asked about my ex, it kind of upset me. To tell my friends she married someone else.

I don't have her around anymore. I just have mia. That makes me sad.