Oh fuck, I just realised what day it was today. 

 

September 1st 2007: I started purging.

 

Fucking hell, perhaps my subconscious knew this. Fucking hell. This is the start of when the year gets really sucky. This is when I find it hard. This is the end of summer, this is the start of darkness (purposeful ambiguation). 

 

I have to be strong. I have to face this. I have to persevere. Things are so much better for me in some ways: I'm so much fitter, working situation is (marginally) better...come on man, pull through this.

 

I gotta try not to overthink this shit.