Good evening.
I'm not sure if this is the second post today, I'm not really sure. In fairness, I do feel like I *probably* didn't do vert much. All the same, I feel much better having went to the gym. There was a moment after the first rowing workout when I felt really out of it. The rowing excercise consists of a 20 second intensive workout and then 1 minute of warming down, which repeats 10 times as a process. I then went on with some weights. There is this arm curl excercise that I'm a lot better at than the other workouts so I put more weight into that, I felt a lot more work in my arms after that increase of weight and I then made and effort with some other machines.
Following the weights, I then went to complete a cycle session, I think I broke two parts of the machine (I won't tell if you don't!). That workout really took the steam out of my sails and although I went on do another 15 or so mins of weights, I decided it was time to stop. My throat felt really dry and I did feel a little bit weak. After my shower and slowly putting on my clothes, I went to the supermarket to get some groceries, I easily forgot what I came there for, I had a mental list of things I've been meaning to get, such as more aspirin and paracetamol, more vegetables and more cough syrup. I felt my fatigue increase during the shop, as carrying all of the food and such grew in weight as I found more. Walking home was a bit of a chore but I managed. I spent a long time warming down, and during the time I watched The Empire Strikes Back on the Sky+. As I get older I get something different from that film. I love how dark it is and Luke's personal journey which skirts on the dark side.
I feel kind of tired, my eyes feel a bit bulgy and my cheeks and nose feel a little bit sagging and stuffy. It feels like I've cried a lot. Watching ESB reminded me of the awe I had when I watched the star wars films, especially as I anticipated in the late 90s what the movies would be like when they came out during the 2000s. I suppose I was a little bit disappointed with the newer trilogy but I do think there are redeeming aspects to the new films. Palpatine's character is one of them.
I've found a little bit of nostalgia over the past day or so, part of it is a reminder of when I used to go to the gym in the mid 2000s (gosh that long ago?!?) as an undergraduate. I felt anxiety and terrible fear with life and all sorts of things, I remembered this one time I went down Gloucester Road in Bristol, which I lived near, but I never traversed because I was afraid by unfamiliarity. One thing that has come up in counselling is the insight that fear and anxiety don't go away: its just how you deal with it that changes.
All the same, I'm glad I went out and did some excercise. I do feel kind of sore in various places, but not as sore compared to the first couple of workouts that I did. I hope this is a good investment! I also hope that I can afford to make ends meet. Typing up this blog post is taking a lot out of me at the moment. I am quite short of breath and my concentration isn't so good. I think i might even have an early night with all that activity. But I do have a lot to do.
p.s.
I've gone very far without realising that valentine's day has come up. I consider that as a victory. It doesn't depress me or make me feel a sense of pressure (peer, or self induced or family or otherwise) to find a girl. I do have a preponderance to snoop on social networking sites a lot looking at pretty girls though. Yeah I admit it, it's kinda shameful for a person who tries to be all so intellectual. This is a long p.s. --back to work.
I'm not sure if this is the second post today, I'm not really sure. In fairness, I do feel like I *probably* didn't do vert much. All the same, I feel much better having went to the gym. There was a moment after the first rowing workout when I felt really out of it. The rowing excercise consists of a 20 second intensive workout and then 1 minute of warming down, which repeats 10 times as a process. I then went on with some weights. There is this arm curl excercise that I'm a lot better at than the other workouts so I put more weight into that, I felt a lot more work in my arms after that increase of weight and I then made and effort with some other machines.
Following the weights, I then went to complete a cycle session, I think I broke two parts of the machine (I won't tell if you don't!). That workout really took the steam out of my sails and although I went on do another 15 or so mins of weights, I decided it was time to stop. My throat felt really dry and I did feel a little bit weak. After my shower and slowly putting on my clothes, I went to the supermarket to get some groceries, I easily forgot what I came there for, I had a mental list of things I've been meaning to get, such as more aspirin and paracetamol, more vegetables and more cough syrup. I felt my fatigue increase during the shop, as carrying all of the food and such grew in weight as I found more. Walking home was a bit of a chore but I managed. I spent a long time warming down, and during the time I watched The Empire Strikes Back on the Sky+. As I get older I get something different from that film. I love how dark it is and Luke's personal journey which skirts on the dark side.
I feel kind of tired, my eyes feel a bit bulgy and my cheeks and nose feel a little bit sagging and stuffy. It feels like I've cried a lot. Watching ESB reminded me of the awe I had when I watched the star wars films, especially as I anticipated in the late 90s what the movies would be like when they came out during the 2000s. I suppose I was a little bit disappointed with the newer trilogy but I do think there are redeeming aspects to the new films. Palpatine's character is one of them.
I've found a little bit of nostalgia over the past day or so, part of it is a reminder of when I used to go to the gym in the mid 2000s (gosh that long ago?!?) as an undergraduate. I felt anxiety and terrible fear with life and all sorts of things, I remembered this one time I went down Gloucester Road in Bristol, which I lived near, but I never traversed because I was afraid by unfamiliarity. One thing that has come up in counselling is the insight that fear and anxiety don't go away: its just how you deal with it that changes.
All the same, I'm glad I went out and did some excercise. I do feel kind of sore in various places, but not as sore compared to the first couple of workouts that I did. I hope this is a good investment! I also hope that I can afford to make ends meet. Typing up this blog post is taking a lot out of me at the moment. I am quite short of breath and my concentration isn't so good. I think i might even have an early night with all that activity. But I do have a lot to do.
p.s.
I've gone very far without realising that valentine's day has come up. I consider that as a victory. It doesn't depress me or make me feel a sense of pressure (peer, or self induced or family or otherwise) to find a girl. I do have a preponderance to snoop on social networking sites a lot looking at pretty girls though. Yeah I admit it, it's kinda shameful for a person who tries to be all so intellectual. This is a long p.s. --back to work.
No comments:
Post a Comment