dear diary,

 

I am feeling angry, depressed and isolated. I don't have people to talk to about this, and the people that I do have I'm seemingly pushing away with my vulgar behaviour. I suppose if I am honest I deserve that. How easy it is to turn from a victim into a thug. I express all that vulgarity to express how much I am hurting inside. I'm also overeating. I'm calculating my calories and its going in excess of 5000kcal. I'm starting to feel 'mia' again, the dark side of me. I could fight that side of me, but I don't see any point...don't have many reasons to get out of bed.