Dear Diary,

I did my weekly analysis and the evidence shows that I had a very testing time this week in terms of anxiety, fatigue and low days.

On Saturday, Hannah came over. We had sex. It was awkward sex. I could sexually satisfy her, but the main issue was my nervousness and underlying anxiety during which we had sex, which made my orgasms difficult. I had a massive orgasm after the second time we had sex the night after.

I have these moments when I might think to myself: I will never find another girl who will like me, and then things like that happened. Hannah called me beautiful. I said in reply: I don't feel beautiful.

I am kinda sleepy. I start a 5 day placement tomorrow. Wish me luck. I'm off to bed now