Dear Diary,

I had some more difficult dreams. Perhaps best not to talk about them. I spent an hour as I woke up feeling miserable. I eventually made it out of bed. I went to my computer and I found some resources about autism and aspergers. It's a bit overwhelming for me to take in. I am reading stuff about what it means to have aspergers and autism, and ways in which people are affected by it. I'm also reading things about how people with autism can be supported by things like low stimulation or 'talking books'.

Its upsetting me. I don't want to have aspergers. I feel like it would change things. I feel like if people knew it would change things. It's another secret to keep.