Changing attitudes

I am no longer trying to impress anyone. I'm just trying to get by.

I no longer feel the need to feel like being part of some youth countercultural group or identify with a 'group.

I am changing my clothing style, I'm now stylistically agnostic/lost. Im moving away from stretch shirts

I feel indifferent to the past. What happened, happened, and now I just feel like getting on.

I feel like I'm in an eternal night. I hate this feeling of sleeping and being without much money.

I have pondered writing all this down but could not find the words or effort within me, or the courage to face this. But I have. I think that once I write it all out of my system then I don't need to think about it anymore and I can move on.