Fear

Dear Diary,

 

Last night was awful. I couldn't sleep and I felt haunted by memories, and mia. Mia was a presence of strength in my mind, something I couldn't defeat. It's strange, in my own mind I thought I was the one in charge. I can't communicate how frightening it was to have that voice in my head, to be carrying it all night. I'm glad I'm awake. I couldn't sleep. I tried listening to the voice for a while but then I realised why I surround myself with activities. Why I surround myself with noise. I can't face the silence of my own mind. That is true fear, when you are afraid of what is inside you.

Going to try and have a normal day. I had some bread for breakfast. I feel a little sick.