trigger update:

 

after 2 hours, I calmed down. I convinced myself after looking at a few pictures of men on google images, that I'm not balding, not yet at least. Although I'll probably get this anxiety again. I need to talk to my GP about this.

I'm also waiting on that interview. It's daunting. I'll also feel relieved once I fully know that I got rejected. It will make me realise how much I love living in london.