Saturday, May 17, 2008

(Just maybe, it's getting out of control...)

Today; I purged about 3-4 times. This morning, as I woke; I made a big meal; which cost me about 3 plates through the past 5 hours; and then, I purged it all.

I've started using the two fingers method. There are a lot of jokes I could make about it;

I lost lots of weight and it only involved 2 fingers!
I'm giving fatness the finger

And so on...

Why am I doing this? Of late my thoughts have been preoccupied with my appearance; but also my distress about being powerless to change the world; and powerless to effect my own life.

I think I have more to express on this issue right now; but I will do it through multiple posts, as distinct units, as distinct thoughts.

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