Monday, April 30, 2012

ship in a storm

Dear diary,

 

Lots of dark stuff going on in my head right now. I'm not feeling very well. I was in bed for a lot of today, wanking too much. I did the garden and helped out in the rain. I did some weeding. I then woke up after sleeping and tidied up the house a bit. I cleaned the house a bit and then something caused me to trigger and reflect on my life.

I'm quite sad right now, I'm feeling a lot of regret. I feel an emptiness and a distinct and fundamental sense of lonliness. Sure I can tell myself that this is just a feeling and it will pass. This feels real. I feel like I'm on a ship in a turbulent storm. I just have to ride it through, right?

Wish I had someone to talk to right now

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