it's 4am and Im still not asleep.

I'm thinking about the pay rise I've been offered. I've been offered an incremental pay rise (pay rise in january then april 2019).

I have opted to reject the pay offer. but it stands I understand as a mandatory condition.

When I think about it, the rejection of this offer is based on some numbers I've crunched about my own income against rises in inflation as a result of brexit and general economy things.

Then I think about some of my friends. My friend at a university isn't getting a pay rise; my friends in the public sector are not really getting a pay rise, except a 1%-er in certain sectors.

I'm fortunate, but I'm also working in a place that may not exist in 10 years.

I've been working on spreadsheets, data entry and some basic csv documents all since about midnight. I've done a solid 4 hours of work.

Later today I hope to go to the gym in the morning. I am also hoping to meet a friend to see Aquaman in the afternoon. After that, I shall have a non carbonated drink in a pub.

Carbonated drinks make me anxious.

Eating makes me anxious

Anxiety makes me anxious.

I have a problem with anxiety. It exists on the su

I think that I've done a satisfactory amount today.

Let's let go and relax, friend.

Onwards, bedwards

I've enjoyed this time we've had together lately. I like writing more on this blog. I should do it more.