Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Whoah....

I found some dodgy pictures on the internet of Marie.

This was very distressing for me.

I think that now she is a distant person, nay, an object.

I  feel so distressed, I no longer see her as a person, but a distant thing. The person I was closest too has now been cut off.

Those pictures are quite arousing, I think I'm going to masturbate over them. In a way, by masturbating over her, and seeing her just as an object, I feel more alone, and yet, more distant from her. I think I need to have emotional distance to the idea of her. It will be a good wank...

...and I will be fundamentally alone

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