Wednesday, October 15, 2008

In my blood

There are some parts of a person which one cannot deny. Some parts so fundamental, that one simply cannot except in some healthy construal of self. For me, I think this is my past as a musician. I couldn't commensurate my present with that past, when I initially had depression.

But now, i think I can.

I think also to myself, never anything such as why did it take so long?, but look how far I have come.

Positive thinking...It sounds so new age and bullshit. But, Antonia's advice and suggestions of help really do affect me in a good way. I'm - I was almost about to say 'happy'. I shall still avoid the word.

One thing really matters, constantly in my thoughts: am I going to get accepted for a PhD?

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