Let me summarise recent events as follows

1. I lost a lot of weight lately, will i keep it lost? don't know

2. I'm dealing with gender issues and ...going through some healing and going through asking for some help

3. I am opening up inside myself and some of that involves a softer me, a more vulenrable me and a more authentic and happier me. I didnt' know this was possible to some degree

4. I feel like with everything going on im right on the edge of things, of sanity, of health, of a brekadown, of a breakthrough. 

I should update this blog more but ...busy and low energy. I spent last 5 hours working on stuff. Probably need to sleep soons.