plan today is to do 37 days logging that i've not done since april. I did the first day of my injury logged but not all the other days. I wrote up a separate doc of my injury recovery timeline and... i'll work on that in parrallel
This would be a healing (I think) exercise to go over the past couple months I've not logged.
I am supposed to be be preparing for an important meeting on Tuesday. I guess not today.
abc please
A: Accumulate positive experiences: I got a hair cut today
B: Build master y in activities that make you feel confident, I went gym yesterday and trying to get over my backlog of work?
C: Cope ahead - not doing so well with this but I'm trying to prep for the weekend and upcoming dates
P: Physical illness prevention. I overate today. that's not good. I need to do better
L : Low vulnerability to diseases. I felt low and comfort ate, I also didn't get as much done on my backlog of tasks
E: Exercise regularly, I am increasingly trying to walk outside and relying less on ubers and more on public transport, I'm beginning to get on the bike more. Still ldoesn't balance what I just had for dinner. I basically had 3 dinners
A: Avoid mood altering drugs. I had too much takeaway
S: Sleep healthy: sleep is the one thing I'm good at
E : Eat healthy. See above
on my google keep i set up a daily notice of thingsi wanted to do when i got back to health. now I'm fulfilling them and not writing into them. I think that's good? does that mean I don't need to write any more in?
Anyway, lets mark the things that were supposed to mark normality when I'd be getting better:
abc please
a: accumulate positive experiences: On tuesday I went to gym class
b: build mastery in activities: i got up early this morning and I am trying to keep to good habits by finishing my non priotiy schema tasks as well as my reading clear up of the tabs kept up on my vivaldi
c: cope ahead: I'm having trouble at the moment but I think that I have set some little seeds, thrown out into my calendar and my habitica workflow document , i'm a bit tired at the moment but I'll .... follow it up later I hope, like the hospital appointment letter I have I shall write it in the diary later and I'll plan on it. I'm struggling to write and justify 'cope ahead' right now, i keep closing my eyes trying to write and the more I write I feel like I'm confabulating, lying to myself. it is the case however that I am doing my best I'm in a bad way right now
p: Physical illness prevention. I haven't gone to the corner shop yet. I think that I'll avoid it. It has been something tempting me because I want to comfort eat
E: exercise regularly. I don't think I can do that today. I did gym class, 16k steps on tuesday, i went to work travelling on train and walking g
a : avoid mood altering drugs. diet coke is my preferred at the moment. perhaps I should avoid ordering wendy's tonight, but I'm really bloody tempted.
e: eat healthy: see previous comment about wendy's. what iff... I had healthy take away tonight? I guess that's having one's cake and eating it, definition of situation: have the good feeling hormones released from some food that is typically junk, but not junk. feeling virtuous in the way that english people typically use the word. I don't think of virtuous in such ways, virtuous is almost victorian when the words is used, like not eating snacks when you really watn to, I think of virtue as Aristotelian masculinity. I don't have too much of the latter at the moment, or the former. Could use an inclusive definition of virtue
anyway I did my abc please exercise. It was tough for me today feels really tough.
today isn't a good day
my writing task from google calendar is a bit of a step away from my mood: write a list of 3 things I'm positive about today:
ABC Please:
A: Accumulate positive experiences: I socialised this week
B: Build mastery in activities: I walked and did the gym on saturday
C: Cope ahead: I started a bit of work on planning
P: Physical illness prevention. I could eat better
L: Low vulnerability ot disease: I worked a bit in the office and walked
E: Exercise regularly: Walking and gym
A: Avoid mood altering drugs: note to self: diet coke is good, coke zero cause heart issues
S: Sleep healthily, the past couple days not so well
E: Eat healthily, not so well
my chest is really hurting right now
abc please
A - accumulate positive experiences. next week i'll be out with colleagues, some socialising
B - Build mastery in activities that make you feel confident - I did some housework today
C - Cope ahead: I've been working a bit on my calendar. I think there's more to do but it's always gradual and I've been consistent
P - Physical illness prevention - need to stop buying crisps from corner shop
L - low vunlerability to diseases - I need to get my blood sugar down and avoid diabetes
E - Exercise regularly - yeah, this. I did walk a bit this week. I even hit 10k steps in a day. But there's more to do
S - Sleep healthy - I think im doing this
E - eat healthy - see above
I've got lots of work to do
i'm trying to do some logging. i thought it might be useful if i wrote a prose version of the series of events since April 10. I see that I haven't done any logging since April 10 and not completed any days since then. I've been doing little logging tasks, biting and chewing and cutting up the little tasks before I go to the bigger ones. I've been avoiding the logging because I realise how distressing it is to remember what happened
April 10
On my way to see Lg at a protest, the front wheel of my bike got caught in my brompton bag strap and the bike went face first as did I into the pavement. I didn’t know at the time but I broke my radius and wrist. I just thought it was my wrist at the time so that’s what I communicated to people.
The injury happened around 1300. I was late and in a rush going to the protest.
Between 1300-1400 I was helped by members of the public, One person gave me water, another person stood down on the floor so I’d lean on their back. An off duty nurse helped me and did an assessment, tried to assess head trauma.
An ambulance arrived 1400. They did a diagnosis, gave me some painkillers and then I got my bike delivered back home. As the injury happened my first thoughts were to apologise to Ni, R and L about not going to the protest, then repairing my bike. I didn’t think about how serious my injury was, or perhaps I did. I was in a lot of pain. I have never been in that amount of pain in my life. I hope not to be ever again.
(0228) 03/05/2022
I’ll continue writing this later.
ABC Please
A - Accumulate positive experiences: I was with family today. I paid for the bill. I expressed my love
B - Build Mastery in activities that make you feel confident. I think that mainly consistst of being at the desk. I haven't done much of that
C - Cope ahead: Not so good at that
P - Physical illness prevention. I need to improve my fitness and diet
L - Low vulnerability to diseases - I need to get my blood sugar down
E - Exercise regularly - Walking would be good if I did more of it
A - Avoid mood altering drugs. Sugar is my drug of choice
S - Sleap healthy. I think I'm doing good at this
E - Eat healthy - See above
