oh boy

Okay, I'm changing to get ready to sign a tenancy agreement. The following has happened this week:

1. Antonia came to see Radiohead with me in London
2. Antonia met my brother, my parents, and we slept in my parental home together...that demands a story to be told, but not for now because...
3. I'm fucking stressed out, due to the fact that I have to move out and don't know how to cope.

As I am changing my clothes...I notice my belly...I'm too fat.

I miss Marie, and I keep having vivid dreams about her.

I don't think its fair to have a relationship with anyone, when I am still in love with that beautiful Marie...

I am so fortunate, yet greedy, yet unappreciative.

I must learn to be better.