one of my aeneas schema (high priority) goals achieved. saved 45k before June 2022. well. maybe will be 46k with the lisa. 

i'm writing to do a running commentary (i was going to say walking) on what I'm doing. 

I've revised my savings goals. I think I might be able to be more ambitious this coming year. I'm trying to build my assets up. 

 lanyards.

there's something very present day about lanyards. there's something very mundane and corporate about lanyards. i was given a lanyard at work and before covid there was a rule about trying toget everyone to wear a card on their person at all time. 

i just changed my lanyard. a couple of years ago i went to the google office. it was nice. i went through a product display of google suite and we got a free lunch and a free notebook and lanyard. i was so chuffed at this and i kept it. i am going through my drawers. im going through my drawers because im trying to find my card reader. i'm trying to find my card reader because i want to put 4k into my lisa. if i put the money into the lisa then i'll automatically get 1k more from the fund. my intention to get my savings up. i have a goal of going up 1k a month and i've just about managed that for April. If I can sort my lisa out I can read 2-3k up in savings by end of next month. 

unless i spend too much in comicon. anyway aside from that, yeah. i'm also thinking about getting a credit card to help with my credit score? 

 dear diary

ive only mentioned it in passing perhaps. i broke my arm on the way to a protest on 9th april 2022

i had to have surgery 2 days later. it was a very drastic and emergency situation

Very touch and go some people might say. traumatic in two senses of the word. emotionally and it was literally trauma to my head and arm. 

2 weeks on from my surgery i think. or is it nearly 3 weeks? its 3 weeks since incident on sunday. 

While I am glad to have the use of my fingers to type after a few days, I have been on a journey. On Monday this week  I had my first hospital check up. I'll have to do this periodically. Perhaps over the next 9 months. The x ray was done and I had my cast removed. It had some icky blood from the plaster and I had a glue like strip thing on my arm which began to come off and felt very itchy 

I've felt very emotional and upset and vulnerable since the injury and perhaps even more so since the cast came off. T is telling me that the scar is manly and handsome and hot but I look at my arm and I see a person that I don't recognise. I'm having some issues at work but I'm at least happy I'll still have a job.

Its 2am. i only got up about 10pm. i have been very tired all day. on thrusday and tuesday at least i went outside. but perhaps it was a bit too much for me.

i called gp on friday i need to sort out my fitness to work letter. they said i have to call on tuesday from 8am

 i stop feeling how crunchy my cast is (because I don't have a cast)

 also on recovery list: cast is removed

 recovery bucket list achievements:

tie laces

hit 10,000 steps

didn't expect to hit those so quickly!

 ABC PLEASE

accumulate positive experiences -  i was out socialising on tuesday evening and I was sensitive and empathic and kind and supportive

build mastery in activities that make you feel confident - umm.. I've broken my arm, what counts? typing?, I tied my shoelaces and did up my tie. I think that was difficult enough

Cope Ahead: I'm mtrying this for certain dates ahead of the week

P- physical illness prevention : i'm not doing well at this if I'm honest, i got a bad result on my blood test and recently was called to say i was 'pre-diabetic' if I don't stop my ways

L- low vulnerability to diseases: I walked 10k steps today, does that count?#

E: exercise regularly, normalise walking as exercise as part of an active life

A: Avoid mood altering drugs: i was on pain meds surely I'm temporarily exempt. having said that I need to stop sugary drinks

S Sleep healthy: - perhaps the only thing I've done well 

E: Eat healthy - working on it (see above , im not doing so well)

 three things i am positive about today

one week on from my injury and i have the use of my fingers to type

codeine helps a lot

mum and dad incredibly supportive

i have friends and family who haven't forgotten about me.

things I'm positive about the future:

1. going to the office again
2. cycling
3. seeing friends
4. making new friends
5. enjoying the summer
6. logging

 just ticking off some things from the bucket list:

met T on a date

bike ride wiht phil

 dear diary

on saturday i was in a rush to prepare to go to a proteset on sunday

on sunday i broke my arm while cycling to the protest.

on monday i was in a cast in extreme pain and feeling very low. 

on tuesday i had emergency surgery and was sent home

on wednesday i was reflecting on the true implications of wht happened

on thursday i got more movement in my hand and tried working

on triday, today, im off work, its easter, and im typing with a cast but with two hands on an external keyboard.

im trying to recreate some semblance of normal and my life.

i'll need to recover.  

 Tuesday 28 march.

Lots happened. Emergency comms meeting. meeting with corporate media LGBT networks, went to drinks at rupert street. went to lovely JOllibee. I had spicy chickenjoy and they nearly ran out of stock before 10pm. the queue was long. I ubered home. super bisy

I ticked off 2 of the bucket list just recently for the post covid era: buy a picanha from the brazilian shop, did that last week saturday, and have some jollibee with the boys. 

I've not been on the bike I think since Sunday or Monday? I really need to get back on it but I have so much to do today. I think if I were just to et on with my logging and planning and catch up I'd have gotten to the end of Sunday. I also think that I need to physically recover today. Or is this logging and admin my form of self care?

Lets talk about Wednesday - Saturday later. It was  prolific week