Now that I've graduated; what is there to life? Well, I'm an adult now, some friends have started paid employment, others still students; myself, I'm a postgrad...
Coming home, so, what is there to expect?
- My parents seeing how I have changed: loss of weight (due to purging)
- My parents seeing how I have changed: concern about appearance (see 1.)
- My parents seeing how I have changed: Ear Piercing!
- My parents/friends seeing how I have changed: Attitude (Marie)
- Returning to the place of my past: implications: nostalgia, resolvement, closure, opening old wounds
- Reunion with friends, old and recently departed from my university city.
- Thinking about Marie...
- Gaining weight...I need to purge more, but its hard to do so with my family around.
- My laptop died, so no porn, or academic work for a while...
Oh well, I'm not sure how I'm going to survive 'Christmas (calorie) dinner'...
I guess I'll try and learn that word; "no", and more difficultly, say no to myself when I see the lovely turkey, the succulent gravy...God give me strength. I need to improve my body...I must lose more weight
On positive news; I bought lots of new clothes from Gap and stuff; I am now a MEDIUM!
I need to do more - I have 50-60lbs worth of shame to get rid of...I've lost 40 since september 1st
2 comments:
Congrats on the MEDIUM! Are you sure you need to lose 50-60 more pounds?
I want to feel comfortable in my own skin...that way; I have less to complain about. It always makes things better to have less to hate yourself about.
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