a few years ago something happened where it caused me so much trouble and worry I needed some outside help to deal with it and its something I still need help with. 

My brother in law had a professional to help me but calling in that chit meant it created a strain in the way my family relates to me.

Anyway I found out that professional died. He's well respected in the community and dI feel a little bit sad and alone with him not being present anymore. The legacy of his good works is that I'm still alive and I'm working full time. The legacy of my health problems are the continued work issues and strains on relationships. 

I'm not sure how to feel about him dying.