I have a lot of demons at the moment. Demons which are ruining my life. I really want to change myself and I must change with every draw of breath and every sinew of effort.
I woke up about 7am today, and I listened to the radio. Radio 4, it was quite ccomforting. Then I felt exceptionally tired and then I managed to get up and out of bed by about 10:30. Since then I have been attempting to blaze through a pre-ordained set of tasks that I have set for myself today.
I still feel the demon inside me callling, sloth, pride, accidie. All of those horrible things. I am looking forward to a few things in social life coming up:
- A friend of mine is in an opera and I'll be seeing him after work on wednesday next week
- tomorrow I have a discussion group
- I might be going on a date next monday with a person i've not been out with before, but whom I know.
- Stag party in a couple of weeks.
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