https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QjsX0IrUtBw (2004 memory - serge lebon, i'm in halls trying to fit in, its October -november 2004 at and I've just started first year. i find an internet radio station for anime soundtracks and this station has songs that frequently repeat and comforts me. despite the pain I feel some comfort in the familiarity of this painful memory that I keep revisiting