dear diary,

i'm re-living my demons a lot lately. I'm having some bad panic and anxiety episodes. Its making me want to avoid social contact and any kind of friendly closeness with anyone. It's my way of protecing myself from something absolutely terrible inside myself.

I had some bad insomnia lately, too. This weekend is almost as bad as when I had a cold not long ago. I have a mind cold - i.e. a bad depression/anxiety/panic episode.