broken

Today i asked my tutor to be a reference. I think he refused. He said lets take things one at a time.

I have a feeling the PhD dream isn't going to happen...

I don't want to lose my dream...please please please make it happen...

please give me my dream. I'll do anything...

please God give me mercy....

I will die if I can't do a phd...I am falling apart.

I have been thinking about antonia all day....dreaming of her support...is all i can hold on to