Dear Diary,

I am experiencing triggers lately.

One just happened. I'm ordering some huel from the huel place and it connected to my paypal. I then saw all my past addresses. My past addresses are a history of who I used to be and who I am now. I still have the address from first year halls, fourth year postgrad digs and, design desk at the Sentinel newspaper.

It makes me reflect, how I've come from where I've been. It hits my heart a little.

I'm spending the past hour trying to define a look for myself:

• Corduroy jeans, it has to be a jean pocket, slim fit
• Thermal crew neck longsleeve T
• Boots, brown, mens size 10, steel toe cap chelsea dealer boots

That was my defining look. 

I mythologise the past as more time goes on. I need that outfit right now. I might buy a gi as well.

Dear Diary,

I'm updating my calendar and events over the past few days (i've left notes on gkeep about what I'm behind on.

A couple of wednesdays ago: 2009 anniversary: My brother's band has a debut album party. 2016, I have a probation review for my FTC

A couple of fridays ago: 2015: I see a play with my friend who is a shit actor, 2016: I have a disability meeting with HR

My Calendar says: on this day (2010) - I received offer of work at Shambly arena.

2016: I am too busy to think about the past as I plan my week.