(fatigue)

Dear Diary,

I feel tired, not the kind of tired where I've been awake all night, not the kind of tired after a gym session, but the kind of tired where after I've worked a whole week of shifts, or a bank of shifts in a row. Tuesday was long, tiring and I suppose also very invigorating. I should try not to think about the interview, but it has been on my mind, and it has affected my mood. Something has come over me lately, a positive feeling. I am reminded of 2004, when I turned 18; 2007 when I turned 21 and both of these experiences, periods have resonance to now. I suppose because there is such an emphasis on turning 18, turning 21. Now I'll be 25... I'm dreading it a little bit.

So I might have a chance to work at a fancy political job. Right now I have my schedule, and a whole lot of tasks, I've gone through the eye of the needle that was tuesday, and I did cut off two tasks from the plan, mainly because I was too tired to follow through. There's a lot for me to be getting on with today, and I will have to get ready for work in about 2.5 hours. My body is telling me that I just want to lay down, or maybe even play an mmorpg. I've been grazing today on food. My weight has gone down since yesterday, which is only expected since I only ate 2 chicken pieces as solid food yesterday, and most of my food was liquid (namely protein shakes, lucozade and water). I have a talk coming up, a media project to deal with, and job vacancies that won't apply by themselves. I feel like I've grown up already. My parents are being nice to me since my birthday is coming up, my dad even offered to get me a new laptop. I think I might take him up on that offer. It might be finally the right time to get rid of this laptop. Getting rid of this laptop would truly be a sign of moving on, moving forward.