Dear Diary,
I feel quite depressed today. I could give a whole lot of reasons but I can say it in one: everyone that I used to know is now successful and doing excellently in their lives, and I am not.
I'm angry at myself for that. I have no one else to blame. I feel like just going back to bet, laying there and not getting out until something changes inside me. This strategy never seems to work as a means of getting better. Yet it is what my body wants me to do. I think this is one of those instances when having a gut feeling is unhelpful. I've learned nothing and achieved little. Purging would be such a wonderful thing right now, but it would achieve nothing.
Dobby is trying to start a conversation with me, over the past few days, Sadia is trying to do the same. I just feel like I'm not interested.
Question I should ask myself: Is there anything that would cheer me up? Yes, but it involves the world being radically different than it is now, and for that reason it feels futile to even entertain if things can be otherwise. I really want to lay in bed now.
I feel quite depressed today. I could give a whole lot of reasons but I can say it in one: everyone that I used to know is now successful and doing excellently in their lives, and I am not.
I'm angry at myself for that. I have no one else to blame. I feel like just going back to bet, laying there and not getting out until something changes inside me. This strategy never seems to work as a means of getting better. Yet it is what my body wants me to do. I think this is one of those instances when having a gut feeling is unhelpful. I've learned nothing and achieved little. Purging would be such a wonderful thing right now, but it would achieve nothing.
Dobby is trying to start a conversation with me, over the past few days, Sadia is trying to do the same. I just feel like I'm not interested.
Question I should ask myself: Is there anything that would cheer me up? Yes, but it involves the world being radically different than it is now, and for that reason it feels futile to even entertain if things can be otherwise. I really want to lay in bed now.
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