Slow and steady wins the race.
Okay, so I got up late today, bad. I had a long wank today, bad. I started tinkering on my laptop from 2pm.
So, what did I do today?
2-3 job enquiries, which leads to 2 possible job applications-cv sendings tomorrow
Scoured a graduate job website, saved a few links to explore in a few days
Joined a website and advertised myself as a tutor for 'A' level, GCSE and undergraduate support
Filled the shit out of my Google calendar for the next few days of things I 'should' be doing
Made lunch (I have gained holiday weight, I have discovered)
Now, I think I am going to apply to facebook for a job (yes, you can tell I didn't look very hard or far.
I have also noticed from facebook that two people I very much envy have their birthday on the day that Im trying to sort out my life.
1. Moriarty's birthday: Moriarty is the guy who humiliated me in front of the ADC society, undermined my position with Marie, and made me purge a lot. It's hard to see him as a nice person, but I try sometimes.
2. Chris Croney: Chris Croney is the guy who got into my old department's prestigious studentship, the one I didn't apply to; he also is a notorious sycophant and lazy ass cunt. I shouldn't be jealous of him, maybe he deserve where he got, but it makes me feel like I don't deserve where I am now. I guess that's the essence of jealousy, the question-begging assumption that they didn't earn a position that you in turn are not worthy of your own shit position (suggestive that I deserve better). I shall try not to be resentful to him. I must purge all bad thoughts out of my awareness!
Okay, so I got up late today, bad. I had a long wank today, bad. I started tinkering on my laptop from 2pm.
So, what did I do today?
2-3 job enquiries, which leads to 2 possible job applications-cv sendings tomorrow
Scoured a graduate job website, saved a few links to explore in a few days
Joined a website and advertised myself as a tutor for 'A' level, GCSE and undergraduate support
Filled the shit out of my Google calendar for the next few days of things I 'should' be doing
Made lunch (I have gained holiday weight, I have discovered)
Now, I think I am going to apply to facebook for a job (yes, you can tell I didn't look very hard or far.
I have also noticed from facebook that two people I very much envy have their birthday on the day that Im trying to sort out my life.
1. Moriarty's birthday: Moriarty is the guy who humiliated me in front of the ADC society, undermined my position with Marie, and made me purge a lot. It's hard to see him as a nice person, but I try sometimes.
2. Chris Croney: Chris Croney is the guy who got into my old department's prestigious studentship, the one I didn't apply to; he also is a notorious sycophant and lazy ass cunt. I shouldn't be jealous of him, maybe he deserve where he got, but it makes me feel like I don't deserve where I am now. I guess that's the essence of jealousy, the question-begging assumption that they didn't earn a position that you in turn are not worthy of your own shit position (suggestive that I deserve better). I shall try not to be resentful to him. I must purge all bad thoughts out of my awareness!
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