Volition

I feel bad if I eat a healthy amount of food and don't purge...

I feel the urge to purge even if I don't feel like I want to

Marie once said to me; when I started purging, that I have to stop now, or else I won't be able to stop.

I guess I don't care whether i stop or not; since she's not around anymore...I just don't care...I must purge...its the only comfort I have