positives (quiet) and negatives (loud)

positives of today:

kept in good hygiene
went to a seminar
called the HP people to collect my computer
made a comment in the seminar that the professor took a note of (something he didn't know about)
went to the gym for an hour and a half


negatives

i ate a lot
i didn't do any work
i am fat
marie is gone
i cited the wrong paper in my comment in the seminar...mistake

gonna go and purge now...feel really low at the moment...i want to be so thin i am not there anymore...hell, i just don't want to be here.