the 'angina' email

I am on the computer and I see that the secretary of one of the universities that have not yet rejected me has emailed just now. I felt a sudden shock in my chest, a feeling that perhaps this was the rejection letter that I have dreaded. It was not, it wasn't an acceptance or offer either. It was just to conform to me that the PDF that I sent has been attached to my application and it is now a full application that I have sent to them.

I'm busying myself by sending an email to a journal editor asking to be a reviewer. Worth a shot...